realtalk
I dated #1 on the football team and I loved him for an entire year. But
the last time I wrote him, he asked me why I was talking to him. I still check
his blog every week, and when the song Budapest comes on the radio, I change
the station.
realtalk
I think my identical twin sister is prettier than me. And sometimes I
say that because I need someone to tell me that’s not true. We argue all the
time, but we know each other better than anyone. I complain about her a lot,
but she’s saved me so many times, it’s really just a formality now.
realtalk
Last night you might have said I was raised with animals: wolves and pigs.
But I don’t feel bad about it. And when someone asked for my number last night
it might have made me happier than I have been all week. It might have been the
one thing that kept me dancing all night.
realtalk
I've kissed way too many guys but I don’t even care anymore.
real talk
I sat next to Innocent Chimp in 9th grade seminary and I
thought I was so cool. Nutella Waffles was in my Be The Change group junior
year and I remember getting so mad at Rebel Rouser in 9th grade, but
I don’t remember why. I hope Sonny Jean knows how much she meant to me this
year. I could say a lot about William J. Marz, but I won’t. Little red is a huge
example to me. And thanks Philo Farnsworth because you've always been so nice.
Sierra Leone I wish you’d open up more to people because people don’t realize
what they’re missing out on. Jennie Duffy you say that I’m beautiful every time
you see me, and I always pretend like I don’t care, but it actually means the
world. You’re beautiful too, and I’m not just saying that. You are brilliant
Beatrice, and never fail to make me laugh. Harold Miner I've seen you change
kids’ lives and teach more than what is written on your lesson plan.
realtalk
People keep telling me that I need to forgive seven times seventy but
my dad still hasn't come to visit me and it’s been 4 years since I moved here.
I miss him a lot more than I let on, and sometimes I milk it a lot more than I
should. He got married this last December, and I have two new step-brothers,
but I don’t remember their names.
realtalk
I haven’t been happy in a long time, and on Friday my mom came up to me
and said I haven’t been me in an even longer time. She said medication has
helped her, and I should think about that too. Maybe I've gotten too good at
saying that I’m fine, that I’m just tired. But I should have told her that the
sun doesn't always rise in the east, sometimes it doesn't rise at all and I’m sick
of going to school, going to dances and football games and student council
banquets and proms in the dark. But being happy is good and I think I’m gonna
try it out.
