To: You

I’m sorry that you’re halfway around the world and I’m here and there’s absolutely nothing I can do about that.

I’m sorry that I’m not best friends with your favorite little sister. I think I’m closer to the one I don’t think you’ll never understand. Maybe that’s why we get along so well.

I’m sorry I’m a distraction (or motivation-whichever you feel you need to call it).

I’m sorry that I already know I cannot marry you.

I’m sorry I love you.

I’m sorry that I can’t let you go either.

All of me, Auburn Crane

Psssssst. Sorry that you won’t ever see this.

something you should know.

you see the girl who has it together.

who gets perfect grades

talks to him in the halls

                        smiles at you and you and you

likes organizing and filing and clean

needs people to talk in correct grammar and know words like milling and awestruck and dawdling

can’t stand incorrect punctuation or misspelled words or misused commas

SO MAYBE I AM A ROBOT.

but let me tell you something

something you should know.

this is the same girl who’s so freaking sick of perfect people

who won’t turn in a finished assignment just to prove to herself she doesn’t need to be perfect

stays up way to late because she actually cares if people like her blog

stutters but pretends she’s just really tired every time she does

hates basketball and has only ever loved it twice

can’t quite decide if she should give him her heart because it might still be broken from the last time and no one really wants a soggy sandwich, do they?

listens to the same song over and over and over. Like an obsession

Just something I thought you should know.

Love, Auburn